News

I just found out that my sister in law is pregnant. I am trying my best to compose myself while writing this post because I have a training I need to conduct a half hour from now and I would hate to have to explain the red puffy eyes.

We got the news yesterday and I lost it. I started crying. Ugly crying. This was harder than I thought it would be. It wasn't a surprise since I knew it would happen one day. They were married before we were and it's hubby's older brother. It's not that I'm not happy for them because I am and I know you guys understand. It just another reminder that we're not pregnant and it upsets me that we're infertile.

This will be the first grandchild on hubby's side of the family so I'm sure it will be the talk of our family dinners. My only reprieve is that they live in another state. For now that's a good thing. When the baby comes I'm sure I will wish that they were closer.

I'm sure there will be more news like this with our friends. There are two couples that don't have children yet.  They were married a year before us so I'm sure it's just a matter of time. I can only hope that I will be pregnant or at least in a different state of being where I can really be happy for them and not jealous.

As for me, it's CD 12 and I'm just peeing on my OPK waiting for it be positive.